Last night I was for sure in active labor. Contractions 2-3 mins apart, lasting 1hr for more than an hour. I head on over to L&D. Get there triaged, examined I'm 3cm, 50 effaced, station -2. Doc looks at me and says your "border line." I can't admit you until 4cm. Your in pain I can tell and your active, would you like a epidural for pain? I can admit you then. I reply no thank you no epidural I do not want it at all. He goes well I can give you stadol, it's gonna make you and baby sleepy but your pain will be taken care of. I'll let you stay in a room a dilate to 4cm then admit you." Against my better judgement I agreed. Little did I know this was the worst decision I could've made. Immediately as the medication was put into my iv line all the back labor pain was gone. Doc says if you have break through pain I'll know for sure your active. I didn't feel a thing. Contractions slowed down significantly. I became alarmed by this but blew it off as I was overreacting. After a few hours, med wears off. I feel contractions but light and unable to time them. Doc says it doesn't seem as your in active labor anymore. I suggest you go walk around the hospital return in 2hrs and I'll check your cervix. I'm tired as hell but agree. Upon my return and the pelvic exam is done I'm 5cm 70% effaced station -2, but not active. I'm extremely groggy at this point and just need to rest. I'm admitted and all that jazz I'm put in the room and I rest..... For hours from 3a-7a no one checked me but I was on the monitor. The cramping returned and so did the contractions. It's a new shift, new nurses new doctors. In a span of 2hrs I was checked  by different doctors and all except the last one said I was 5cm 70% -2 no progress. Each Doctor shoved down my throat that I should have an epidural to help me with my pain. Each time I declined and was told I may be discharged home because I need the epidural and I'm not progressing. If I dilate to 6cm they can bust my water. The last doc comes in and does the exam and says 4cm 50% station -3. I look at her like she's nuts and tell her what every other md said and shes like okay why don't you try walking again. I'm beyond pissed at this point, tired as hell not to mention hungry. I told her I'm extremely tired from the medication given and I don't think walking is good at the moment. She asked if I was ready for an epidural, I told her please add to my f****** chart that I will NOT be having an epidural at ALL. She says okay and suggests walking or discharge home. Of course at this point I'm mad and I tell her off. Because a pelvic exam is a very subjective exam why are 12 different doctors doing it on one person? It needs to be designated to one physician. Secondly labor progresses forward not backwards how did I go from 5cm 70% -2 to 4cm 50% -3 that's unheard of. She tells me all physicians that saw me all documented station -3 no one said I was 5cm everything is 4cm. 😐 I'm so puzzled and I asked to be seen by the attending physician only. How convenient that at that time the attending was in a two hour long c-section. I could go walking and come back and the attending will see me. After the walking if the baby goes down to -2 I'll break your water. Again against my better judgement I go. Come back from walking and see the attending who does a half ass pelvic exam and says oh yes only 4cm baby high station -3 you want epidural? I'm angry "why the f*** are you all pushing a epidural on me. My body I'd designed for this! If and when I want it I'll tell you. Attending goes okay, no active, you go home. I know you want to have baby early, you only 38.3 still to early.....wtf. I came here because I was in active labor jerk not to have a baby early. So needless to say, I'm home upset, still pregnant, confused about all that's happened and having lots of cramping and contractions but afraid to go to the hospital.....