Bipolar disorder

Anyone else suffer this piece of shit disease?  I can't enjoy my pregnancy.  I can't even stop crying sometimes. I'm sitting in the parking lot at work trying to suck it up so I can go in but I can't! I feel like a horrible person and I don't wanna bother my hubby with this bc it's just not fair to him. Really don't know what to do.  And so help me god if u mention essential oils, diet change, etc.  this is a vent not me asking what non-regulated prescription you have for me