I'm writing this anonymously because it is the unknown.

I'm scared.

Iv been with you for almost 6 years. We met age 16 & 17 and had a whirlwind of a time. Ups downs times I thought we wouldn't make it through and we did. You had your shot at your dream 2 years into our relationship and you let it slip because you felt like you couldn't have both. You gave it up for us. Everyday I felt guilty. I know it wasn't my fault. It was your choice. I didn't push you to give it up I would of supported you the entire way with or without me by your side. I felt guilty I ruined your chances. I refuse to let that happen again. You have another shot at perusing your dream. And I refuse to be the reason you don't. You have my full support. Before this opportunity we planned to get married and were trying for a baby. It hasn't happened. Maybe there was a reason. Maybe this chance you have is the reason we havnt been able to conceive yet. Maybe it's your turn to shine baby. I understand that our schedules clash. That we don't have the time right now. But I'm scared. I'm scared you will drift away in the process I'm scared that while your chasing your dream I'll be left in the dust. I'm scared you will forget about me. I'm scared you will no longer need me around. I'm scared you will forget how to love me. But regardless oh how scared I am. Regardless of the risk of you slipping away I will support you. Whether it is beside you or from a far. I will not let this opportunity slip away. I'm selfless around you. Against all my fears. I hope you do it baby. I hope you get to where you need to go. I hope I'll be beside you but I know that may not be possible. But I beg while your out chasing your dream please don't forget about your star 18 miles away. Where ever it takes you. Even if this dream causes us not to be together. Please don't forget. I'm scared baby but I'll fight the fear for you. Because you my love are my greatest dream.

I love you.