I literally don't know what to do. Every single form of BC with hormones has made me violently ill and Dr's wont give it to me anymore so I'm being forced to deal with my period. It's fucking disgusting and I'm sick of it. I don't want to spend a fourth of my miserable shitty life bleeding onto things and smelling like a dog in heat. I literally can't stand my body. I hate everything. I'm on the paragard and I'm bleeding so heavily i ruined my new couch, and can't stop bleeding through pads and clothes. I've read up on the hormonal issues women with hysterectomies get, and you can take supplements and that may help. I know you can get prolapse and i honestly just do not care. I just don't. If i could I would have this thing sewn shut and just leave me a urethra. I'm so serious. My boyfriend won't have sex with me when I'm bleeding anyways and I'm always bleeding so what is the point in even having one. I just cannot find a dr who will do it. They all think I'm just being hormonal. Well, guess what?! I feel like this every day. For years. It's not just when I'm bleeding through nice dresses on a date. Or when my work chair has to be wheeled past co workers with a big puddle in it. Or when i wake up in it. Or when my boyfriend turns me down for the millionth time making me feel like some animal or like I'm diseased. Im done. I have two kids and have a history of miscarriage and stillbirth. My body has done nothing but fail me majorly. I'm *this* close to getting a plane ticket to another country to get this done. Any advice on getting a dr on board with me?? Any experiences with hysterectomy? I know it can turn out badly and I'm open to those stories, becuase just short of dying before my kids graduate high school- I'm u phased completely.