Hi everyone!

This is kind of lengthy, bare with me. Haha.

After a miscarriage at 5 weeks in August 2015, and months of trying, we are finally pregnant! 8 weeks today actually! Now, while I'm over the moon with excitement, i can't help but be a nervous wreck...all the time. TMI ahead, but every time i go to the bathroom im terrified to wipe and see blood. Thats what happened the last time. Basically, with my first pregnancy, i only found out because i thought it was unusual for me to be bleeding when i was and i took the tests for the heck of it. Surprise! I miscarried a couple of days later. I didnt have any symptoms then, just an increase in my breasts. I just knew something wasn't right from the start, but still, just as heartbreaking finding out i was right. This time around, we tried to conceive. I was tracking EVERYTHING. We were still very shocked though! Again, no symptoms other than a missed period. So far with this pregnancy, i don't feel at all like i did before. I started having symptoms a week after i found out and they just get worse daily. I had my first bout of morning sickness yesterday and i was actually happy about it. It may sound strange. But i kind of feel reassured when i have symptoms. Makes me feel like everything is normal with this pregnancy. My first appointment is friday and im so afraid. I have nightmares of my doctor not finding a heartbeat, or seeing anything in there. I guess im just kind of looking for stories of hope and encouragement from any of you who have been through a similar situation. Miscarriage, nerves, a healthy second pregnancy. We just want nothing more than to be parents to this little blueberry. So much love is waiting for him or her. Nothing left to do but keep praying for a beautiful heartbeat on friday, and a healthy 8 months. Prayers to all of you who are trying, or carrying. Thanks for reading. :)