Torn between what to do

I wasnt sure where to post this so please lwt me know if this is against the rules. So my father and I have never been extremely close. I love him dearly and I know without a doubt he loves me. My dilemma is for years my dad has barely kept in contact with me, I have to either text or call him, or go visit with him, which I will gladly do if it means I get to see my family, to ever get any kind of hello from him. It makes me so tired to continue this as I am 25 now and expecting a baby. For 5 weeks I have heard nothing from my father until of course I text him today saying I miss him ( I didn't call because he really doesn't answer phone calls too often ). He's thrilled about his new grandchild but when it comes to effort it's like I have to contact him or I will hear nothing. If I sound selfish I apologize and don't mean to it just hurts more than ever now, I see how happy he is with my stepmom and my littlest brother but I just wish I would get a phone call or a visit from time to time. Should I just stop trying to contact him and see what happens? It breaks my heart to even think like that but I'm just tired.