Depressed beyond my breaking point

Maddie • Just trying to make it through life one skip at a time
Going through a lot having to sell my horse who is my baby... The love of my life my soul mate is moving back to Brazil in 2 months his mom suddenly hated me when I cracked yesterday and we got into a fight and I tried breaking up with him my parents are really really mean and nasty to me lately struggling with school i no longer have any friend they all left me what to do 😔