Our oldest is a boy and our youngest is a girl.

I love them both so much and wouldn't trade them for anything. But my son is definitely the better child right now seeing as he is 5 and my daughter is going through her terrible almost 2's. Though my son has always been a dream and was such an easy baby as well.

Our daughter screams all of the time to get what she wants or when she doesn't want something or she screams out of anger or crying or just because she wants to scream, and it's a struggle everyday to have to try to get her to use her words (she speaks short sentences now and knows many, many words already) and she almost won't nap anymore, etc..

So now that we are pregnant with our third, we are both hoping it's a boy. And I feel that if it's another girl that we will both be terribly disappointed and dreading another daughter that might turn out very screamy like our current daughter is. I always told myself for each child that I would never be disappointed as long as they are healthy. But when I think about the possibility of another girl, my emotions are fear and dread and disappointment. But I don't want to feel that way. It also doesn't help that my sister in law just found out she was having a boy, so now I just feel like mine will be a girl. And I feel terrible for even thinking this way. And I know most girls really aren't this bad. My sister and I were never like this as told by my mother and my grandmother told me that my mom and my aunt were never like this and that it's just how my daughter is right now and that she will grow out of it. But there are more stressful times with our daughter right now then good times. And we dread thinking about another screamer. It's to the point where we can't even take her to restaurants anymore.

So has anyone else had this feeling and what did you end up having, a boy or girl? And how did you feel about it in the end? I will love all of my children no matter what, but I am afraid of getting depressed if I do find out its another girl. I just don't want to feel that way 😓 I want to be excited no matter what, especially since our journey to our third was a little long and heartbreaking.