I'm getting ready to start my 5th cycle of clomid and I feel like I'm so over it. I have pcos and my doctor seems to think it will be just a matter of time, but after 5 years of trying and 4 months of pills I don't know that I want to do this anymore. I know it sounds crazy as I am young, but I can't seem to shake the idea that Gods plan for my husband and I is to adopt a child who may go their whole life not knowing love. Anyone who's been in this boat, please give me input. I want my own children, but I don't want to spend my whole life trying for something if it's not going to happen.