deflated! ?

Amz • TTC #1
Tested this morning with FMU as AF was due yesterday. bFN I know it could be too early but I feel so deflated everyone on here seems to get really early positives before AF is due so can't help but think that te symptoms are all in my head and I'm out this month. ? 
Each BFN feels like you've been punched in the gut!
Anybody have to wait until after AF to get a BFP? X