2 days before the celebrations and we had a massive fight. we got voilent on top of it all too. which really upset me and scared me. my mother was a whitness of it all. 

today my mam brought him down by saying you shouldnt be with him he has no right.. i havent spoke one word too him at all. he came back after calming down saying how sorry he was and that he doesnt deserve me and he would do anything to make it right.. blah blah blah.. i still didnt talk to him. after my mam said that to me whilst he was sat there he said with anger she should thank me for the lesson ive tought her! i said get your stuff and fuck off out of my life. he packed hos stuff and has left.. ripping our cards up that had memories.. 

what will i say to everyone? 

my heart still loves. 

my brain says no.

but yet still says yes. 

advice please.. i know most of everyones answers will be get out of that relationship.. & i know thats the right thing.. but im stuck asif my world is falling apart. asif i dont know how to move on.. 😔