I have suffered from depression in the past and since coming off the pill to try and concieve eight months ago my depression has returned worse than ever. Every month my period arrives the depression gets worse. I finally went to the dr today for help and he's put me back on the antidepressants and the pill again for six months at least. His theory is that I need to get myself sorted mentally before trying to conceive which is right I know but it's totally broken my heart. I am at my lowest now, it was the trying to conceive and failing that triggered this bout of depression and now I can't even try to have the baby myself and my husband want so much. My husband works away and won't be home till tomorrow night and I feel so alone. I don't know why I'm putting this on here as I know no one can help but I need to tell someone.