Breaking up?

Question

I don't even know where to post this I just know I have to.
I suffer badly with bipolar and anxiety, I've been in my relationship for three years and he's been a god send, he's helped me get what I need from the doctors blah blah blah,
But the past year I've been awful, I've been suicidal I've been nasty, violent and so much more. I do rely on him a lot (not financially I work) just emotionally, today I broke down when he asked me to leave his, bc he has to go to work and his mum was home, we don't get on due to her not believing I have bipolar. Anyway, I kicked off begging to stay as I did a night shift yesterday then a six hour shift too, he couldn't as his mum said no. We argued now he has said he's had too much and wants to leave me? What do I do, I'm trying to get better I'm on new meds I work 48hrs just so I'm out and not unsociable.. 
I admit it's mostly my fault but I can't lose him, not when I'm this unstable I'm scared what I'll do to myself..
Please someone help me? Some advice?

Answer

I don't know you and I don't know your situation but it breaks my heart to heart what you're saying. I went through serious depression and anxiety in my late teens and early 20s and it's very hard to see it now but there is SO MUCH in store for you. Please try to find some family to lean on and even if you don't think counseling helped you should really go talk to someone. Just like medication, the first doctor might not have been a good fit.

I will also say that even for people who believe in depression/bipolarism it is not easy to deal with. I have a friend who is very down on himself and I constantly wish he could see himself the way the rest of us see him.

This is a blip in time. I know it's hard and I know it sucks and minutes seem like hours but IT WILL PASS.

I'm 32 now and I am past the deep depression. I found out when I was 25 that it was being caused by estrogen in birth control pills. No matter what medication they put me on for the depression and anxiety it never helped until I switched to a progestrin only pill. I'm married now and I will never go back on any form of chemical birth control.

Please reach out to someone or call a hotline. You may not see it right now, but you are so valuable. Prayers for you and for him, too.

Answer

U might need counseling

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