Feeling crap

Oh been ttc with so for 10 months thought this was the month but Hoping it's not...just had another row and he can't see it from my side told me he's done and I can go off with whoever i been seeing. He just doesn't get it. We live apart at the minute he's at his mums and he's had a friend go to visit him she's never liked me she warned me to never settle with her best friend or else...he took my side at the time but I haven't spoken to him properly since she went to see him she was meant to be there one day but has stayed two nights and again tonight blaming bad weather for her train not being available I said how comes you can call me and txt me today and she's there but not yesterday and the day before??? He's like you always make us row and make us bad I'm done with you go back to who ever you been with I'm sat here fighting back the tears I hate him and hope I get AF I don't wanna be tied to him in any way just want to give up on everything sorry ladies just wanted to rant. Why can he not see it from my side and how much it hurts me...what's it take to drop me a text and let me know your thinking of me? I do it when I'm out with my friends all the time just feels hopeless and I'm so down right now ????