Hello everyone! I am a 26 year old female who has an amazing man by her side, but we are trying to conceive annnnd it's taking a while. I've been off birth control since August of 2015. I've been on birth control non stop since I was 12. So no luck just yet, but I'm dealing with some struggles I'd like other women or kind people to shed some light for me. If you're going to be negative or nasty please carry onto another posting and pick on someone else. Anyways, every month I get my . it's like the end of the world for me my emotions go all crazy sad, angry, depressed, mad, feeling broken, not understanding why, what did we do wrong and we followed the app. Any thoughts on how long this might take? Any suggestions? I have been tested for my progesterone after my period and it came back a 16.5 so I'm good. I know stress doesn't help, but recently my man's brothers girl got prego and I've been envious, happy and jealous all at the same time. I've never really got along with them to begin with and seeing them accidentally get pregnant kinda hurt in a way. I'm not so upset about others getting pregnant around me, sure I see them and go darn I wish that was me but I'm not mad about it. Just around my . all my depression and anxiety just hits the roof though. I have horrible insecurities that I've had forever and I just want to be happy and have fun trying but it's really frustrating. Then on top of it all it frustrates my man because I tell him all my feelings and thoughts and well I'm not so sure what to do. I don't really want to talk to a councilor as I've tried that in the past with other issues and they just seem to give me a sheet of paper to use to redirect my feelings. Not really helping me in any way. I've tried Sertraline but that makes me pretty numb all the time and tired sometimes. Any thoughts questions or suggestions? I know I'm not alone in some aspects and this is a big community so I'm hoping someone else is dealing with a similar set of struggles.