Trying not to get my hopes up

Katherine
So we've been TTC for ~5 months now and I've been working hard to stay calm, not get nervous every month and know it'll happen when it happens. But... Easier said than done! AF was due last Friday, but I've used self control, not gotten my hopes up, and haven't tested. In previous month's I've felt nipple pain after ovulation for a few days, but none this month, so I'm assuming I didn't ovulate this month (that's happened before too). But this morning I've had to pee like crazy constantly. I'm trying to tell myself it's nothing, but now all I want to do is get done with my day so I can go home and test! I'm being crazy, right?