Second round

Natarsha • Been trying for baby #1 since June 2014 .. I have a blocked right side. IVF started April 2016
Second round of clomid specialist put my dose up since first round . I have a blocked right tube... After 6 months of monitoring and 1 round of clomid my left side finally decided to make follicles ... For 6 months only my right blocked side was producing eggs.... I began crying yesterday at the ultrasound like an idiot ! I been trying for 2 years. My estrogen off clomid hits 700 max and yesterday I was told it hit 1700!!!! I have 2 follicles on my left side I have so much joy ! I was given the release needle thing yesterday morning (Monday) . I have done the deed Sunday morning . Monday night and tonight ... I have everything crossed but deep down I also have no hope that I'm excited for no reason like even though after 6 months of no having my good side release the eggs that it still won't work even with 2 eggs on my healthy side I think I'm up to the point I have lost all hope :( 
Please feel free to comment your experiences and pain as I just needed to vent to someone as no one else understands and I hate them saying it will happen stop thinking about it well I can't stop thinking about it as my body needs the help , and having blood test and ultrasounds and told when to have sex and when to come in to see if ovulation took place kind of makes it hard not to think about it! 
Baby dust to all💫💫