First BFN

So I had my first BFN today. Been trying for 2 months. I'm 4 days late and have some symptoms but also have PCOS so my periods can be irregular but they've been regular recently. I'm so disappointed. I'm going to do my best to lose some weight and try to just enjoy myself this month ... I want AF to come now just so it's over. I feel like I've convinced myself it'll never happen, I think I'd convinced myself of that before we had even started trying though. Has anyone else felt like this?