Help!

I'm so fed up with how dependant I am on my boyfriend. I'm 16, and I have yet to get my permit because of anxiety. I don't go to public school because of anxiety. I don't have a job because of anxiety. He drives me to and from my house almost every weekend and I can't ever pay him gas money because I don't have money to begin with. I know he's tired of it, who wouldn't be? I feel like an awful girlfriend, like the hour long drives are taking a toll on us. Like he may leave me. And I think that's just my anxiety talking but... I'm struggling. I feel like a failure, which is making my depression worse. I know the only way to solve this is to get a hold of my condition and get a job and my lisence and a car and stuff. But it's easier said than done. Am I the only one? What the hell am I gonna do?