Lately I've been getting more and more depressed. I don't talk to a lot of my friends anymore because a certain problem I have. I don't want to do anything. All I want to do just sit on my butt and stare at the ceiling. If I play games I get on then get off. I've been looking for jobs and I get upset even more. Sometimes I find myself crying and just wanting to disappear. I try my best to stay positive but everything just keeps bringing me down.i hate the fact that the one person I can talk to about me being like this is like 5 hours away. If I tell my mother she'll throw religion in my face. I just want to go back to my happy self again.