You guys need a little background though... He is originally from Colombia and we met when he first came over here on his tourist visa. We fell in love and my family adores him. Since he's not a legal citizen though, he technically can't work. Majority of the places where I am do not offer cash jobs whatsoever, so it's been really difficult for him since he's worked everyday since he was sixteen. We have to have $1,900 to change his status so he can work legally and be able to live with me in the US, otherwise he has to leave in one month and I don't know when he'd be able to come back. I know the decision to go three hours away was quick and probably not thought out well (because he had no money to take with him) but I understand that he is trying to make a life for me and the baby.

 I stopped working two months ago, and I can have my old job right away but he tells me no, to just take care of myself and the baby. I have been emotionally beat for a week wishing he was still here with me, it's the saddest I've ever felt, and I feel hopeless.

 I started calling so many places to finally find one that could hire him, but he didn't want to listen to take that offer from me, because he doesn't want to live with my parents anymore after what happened. So, he made the decision (without me by the way) to buy a plane ticket to Boston PA from where he is now because he has a job there with another friend where he can stay for two months and make money. 

Now when I called him and asked what was going on (because he sent me an email of all things, like a phone call wouldn't have sufficed?) I started freaking out because he never considers how I feel at the moment, he just ignores it and says its for our future. I don't want this. I want him here with me where we can figure out how to get a job, but he fights me ungodly.  I'm so incredibly stressed out with all the money we need but don't have, I don't even know how to think straight. I understand why he is doing what he's doing, I just want him with me in these times. He won't even be here for the ultrasounds or when we find out the sex of the baby. Everything I needed him for, he won't be here. I find this so incredibly hard I just cry all the time, but I'm scared it's hurting the baby.

Anyone have any advice on how I can subside my pain? It feels like it'll never stop, I can't imagine two more months like this!!