My baby was planned. My pregnancy was supposed to be that happy rainbow baby feeling. It was supposed to be the joy of my day regardless of the symptoms. But after finding out my husband cheated on me a few months before conceiving.... It's ruined it all. I feel a disconnection with the baby. I feel no love towards him or the baby. I feel terrible but I can't help myself. If I'm not crying, I'm filled with rage and pain. I just float along. In Texas, I can't get a divorce while pregnant, so I can't even leave if I wanted to. 😞 he made me feel like life was perfect. I didn't know he wasn't happy. I didn't know he felt discouraged that we've had so many miscarriages... But what about me? How do you think I feel? I can't even ge through an entire conversation without breaking down. I hate him for doing this to me. I hate him for making this beautiful moment full of happiness into a burden.