Need some faith

I grew up in the Catholic Church, not super religious, but went on Sunday's, was baptized, first communion, etc. My whole life I believed and never doubted there was a God protecting and watching over us, and I always believed in a heaven or some sort of after life. I never thought about it much, therefore never questioned it, and just always had faith and believed. Then as I got older (18, 19ish) I started lacking faith. I feel like when I pray I just talk to myself. I feel like there may not be purpose to life. I'm angry I'm TTC and don't get it. This is all so frustrating because when I reason the parts of life, it only makes sense to believe. But I just have a hard time feeling like there is God with me or listening to me. Has anyone else ever lacked faith or gone through a trial like this? How do you strengthen your relationship with God and make life about him? Any personal stories would help.. I've been reading Light for my Path Prayers & Promises and The Purpose Driven Life, and they are helping, but I just want to feel that strong connection I used to my whole life without doubt or question at all in my mind. 💔