Well ladies AF showed up yesterday. I had a huge meltdown when I got home from work. I just knew this was my month. My husband was very supportive and held me until I fell asleep. I am so upset and depressed that I called in from work today. It makes me question if God is punishing me. Deep down I know that is not true but I am in a dark place right now. I just want to start a family so bad and it's not happening.