Today is our first time being home with our baby. Soon as I walked through my doors at home, I had this rush of emotions consume me. All I want to do is cry, I made myself eat earlier and now I feel nauseous and have diarrhea. Everytime my baby cries it makes me have tears in my eyes and I feel like I can't hold him.. I just don't understand how I went from being so happy at the hospital with him to coming home and being sad and helpless