I have Cyclothymia (hypomania and mild depression). It's a milder form of Bipolar Disorder. Anyway my illness is affecting my marriage severely. My husband is starting to lose patience dealing with my mood swings. I am unmedicated because I do not want to be a shell of who I am and I do not like how pills make me a zombie. I have children to take care of and ik in order for me to be at my best to take of my children I need to take care of myself first. My question is this; how do you cope with your spouse who has it? I don't want to let my illness depict who I am. I don't want it to make me lose my family. I don't want to lose my spouse because of my issues. If you have a spouse who is medicated for it, what is the medication? I didn't realize how much it was affecting my life till I stood back and was like wtf are you doing?! Why did you make tht choice?! Why are you acting like this?! Type of random clear thoughts.