Touchy topic abortion:(

Please don't judge!!! 
Ok I'm going to post this anonymously because im not proud of this.. So I've had two medical abortions some may think that I don't deserve to be a mother now but now that is all I want my reasons for gettin the abortions make nonsense to me at all now a few years later.. I was scared and didn't have support from the people I needed support from especially the child's father he made me feel that it was my faulty that I had gotten pregnant and that if I didnt get an abortion he would leave me. I REGRET having both abortions although I was the one attending the apportionment it wasn't my choice to be there