Scary confession

Ok ladies so I'll start by saying I don't deserve nor am i looking for any sypathy that's not i I'm writing this. Ok so 3yrs. ago i moved to fla. and my whole life changed I became very careless and irresponsible so long story short I'm now 29yrs old living with my dad 4months pregnant with no job and no father for my kid. I'm scared to death bc even if I do get a job I'll find some reason to quit. The "I'm about to be a mom" has not hit me I thought wen I got pregnant I'd get back to my old responsible working 6 days a week self but I'm not. I feel like if I don't get my life together asap I'm gonna have to give my baby up for adoption bc I will not make my baby struggle bc I'm incapable of doing something simple as keeping a job. Any thoughts????