Obese 🐷

Hope
Help. I am pretty obese. I'm 5'1 and about 190 lbs. I'm a couple of weeks pregnant. I don't want to gain weight. I know that some bigger people don't gain as much weight as thinner people when pregnant. But in my family all the women get as big as a house when they are pregnant. I already have body issues. I gain weight like there's no tomorrow especially if I'm stressed. I have a ridiculously stressful job. Before I started I weighed 155 lbs. I have been there for 3 years. I guess o eat my feelings or when I am stressed. I'm trying to control my diet but I love food. Is it safe to try to lose weight when pregnant? This will be my first baby. Just so scared to blow up, I'm already very short.