So I was told that there's a 90% chance of me not being able to conceive due to the amount of radiation I had on my lower abdomin and the fact that I have cysts in my ovaries. I haven't told anyone that we have been ttc since April with no luck. I found out in May that my friend and my cousin were pregnant. I immediately became upset but it went away. Then my two sisters and my two brothers wives announced their pregnancies. My friend became pregnant in August but sadly lost it in September and I resented her. Now everyone I know who is pregnant is announcing the baby's gender and my step daughters mother told me today that she is expecting another baby. Is it wrong for me to hate all these women in my life that are pregnant. My friends say don't worry about having a baby you can always adopt when I tell them about my IF but I always say if I can't feel my baby move inside of me I don't want one. Am I being selfish? Am I wrong for feeling this way? I need advice. I'm hoping the hubby and I conceive this month as i have had EWCM for 2 days and I never have had it before. We BD the day before I had ewcm and this afternoon. I'm praying.