I had to get this off my chest!

I feel stupid but I need to vent. This has been eating me alive for almost 2 years. I'm working constantly I have like 3 friends who are all abroad for school so I have no one. So I'm just getting this off my chest.

I dated this guy from Feb. 2013 to January 2014. Had my first sexual relation with him June 2013. I wasn't worried I loved him. Life went on. Had a health problem in September 2013 was in hospital for like 2 days. No big deal. Broke up December sort of then called it off officially in January 2014. Went in for a normal check like summer 2014. Doctor made a comment and said any chance of you being pregnant again. I was like no I've never been. He showed my sheet and it stated that I miscarried September 2013. I was like no one ever told me that. I was so shocked. I didn't know I was pregnant. But I was like ok no big deal there's no baby. It took a while to sink in. I was pregnant with his baby and he and I didn't know. Then I got super depressed because I thought right now today I could have a toddler and I didn't. I was crushed. I almost felt like I wanted him back to relive what we had so I could have a baby. Ugh I'm so stupid. I just had to get it off my chest! And today he's dating some girl who looks like she could be my sister! I'm just feeling so odd I don't understand why it bothers me when it didn't bother me before I found out I had at one point been pregnant. I sound ridiculous I know. Sorry. Just had to get this off my chest. Here I am these years later finally bringing this to light. I couldn't keep it inside anymore. Sigh