I am so upset

Sophia
I thought this would be my month but I guess not I think af decided she wanted to rear her ugly head a four days early because when I wipe I seen a tinge of blood then I wiped again and nothing. I drink a lot of liquid so a few minutes later I had to go again and when I wiped nothing so I got a pad on just in case. I am so very upset. I really wanted it to be my month. I am crying while I type this. I am so hurt right now. Everybody is getting pregnant but me. And I just don't know how to tell my boyfriend that af came today if she is here. I am having cramps but I don't know what they could be no more.