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Eating Worries

Just hoping that writing this will get everything out of my system, it's probably really stupid and insignificant so feel free to ignore this completely.

So I'm 16 and I'm worried about having an eating disorder...I didn't even think that would happen or could've happened to me until today.

My friends worry about me and are always trying to get me to eat, I skip meals, I leave 15-20hr gaps between eating sometimes, I pretend I'm eating normally so my parents don't notice and I eat half of the dinner they cook me so they actually see me eat something, and I hate the way I look and feel...

The reason it suddenly felt so wrong was at lunch at work today, I hadn't eaten for 17hrs and my friends there convinced me to eat something so I got out the lunch I had bought with me but intended to throw away. I ate a few month fulls and then ran to the toilet and threw up... Eating makes me feel sick and guilty so I hate doing it.

The most messed up bit is that I thought I loved food too much but now I know that really I hate it

Anyway I'm fine, most people will say I'm probably just being a dramatic teenage girl, thanks to anyone who read this

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