I was raped by big brother when I was 13 years old and he was in his early 20's, I think about 90 something times, he told me I would get in trouble and that nobody would believe me, he knew it was wrong bc I would ask him what happens if I get pregnant because at that age I had had sex ed kind of I mean I knew how you got pregnant and he just told me not to worry about it. I have five years left til he gets out. Yes I finally told. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. I was so worried nobody would believe me. I still remember the surroundings and environment the first time it happened. Right down to wat time it was and what I was wearing. I have just this past month been okay w being intimate since. I still have moments where it creeps up on me and I wanna cut n self harm bc thats how I coped with the emotional n physical pain when I was younger. But I remind myself thats not who I am and it doesnt define Who I am and that's in the past and I cant live there.