Child abuse

Bella • Im 19, husband 35
When I was about 9 years old, my cousin, who was about 16-18 years old had an older boyfriend, about 20-28, and everyone knew him and was one of my dads best pals, but when there was a family party like christmas or thanksgiving, I would fall asleep in my cousins room and he'd always come in and touch me until I woke up. I would never say anything and would wait until he walked out. On other occasions, I would want to go and visit my cousin, and my dad would call him to come pick me up and take me to her house and he would park in a nearby super store and get in the back seat with me and would make me sit on him and molest me, I never said a word about it, after he finished he would always ask me "did u like it". I dont even know why I let him touch me. On another occasion, I woke up in my room and found him lying next to me, the moment I woke up he grabbed me and tried to molest me on my own bed, when I managed to get out of his grip I huddled in the corner and he stood infront of me holding his dick in his hand, I then told him I would scream if he didnt get out, and he just walked out. No oneknows except   my boyfriend and my cousin.