I had a miscarriage a year ago today and the pain is still so strong, I was only 8 weeks and I know women who have miscarried further along so I shouldn't feel sorry for myself, but after it happened I kept telling myself this time next year things will be different, roll on 12 months and we're still TTC. I know friends who have become pregnant in the last year without even trying which frustrates me and feels me with jealousy, I hate being a bitter person and I try not to be but its so hard. I try to be a good person I don't smoke, drink, I pray to God for a blessing but still nothing, I have baby clothes I naively bought when I was pregnant and I cry into them each month when AF arrives, it breaks my heart and I feel like I'm letting my partner and those around us down, thank you for reading I feel posting on here helps 💔😢