i just feel so alone. locked in these four walls. no friends o human connact besides my phone. no facebook. i have no tv. just the four black walls in this room. i live in a tool shed type room with a bathroom in the main house. ita just me and him. if i dont answer his text within 2mins its the silent treatment and he doeant come home. between the name calling and the things thrown around the put downs. life is sad. i have no motavation to live out side these four walls. no motavation to make human contact. its dead. i went to being this girly girl to a person so just doesnt want to go iut and live . pink used to be my favorite color now its black or grey. where is my motavation to life. where is my happiness. i dont feel pretty i dont feel whole i hate myself. its bot something i hide i cant fight the tears any more. i just cant take it anymore . on my left arm i have scars to whrre i use to cut my self. i cant and will not do that anymore.

sorry for the long rant but i have no one to talk to just want a friend to hear me out