So I thought I was obsessed before , well now I'm over the top :)) lol been together for seven doing the whole ( not trying not perventing) thing, one miscarriage, <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">tracking ovulation</a> for a year. With every month of disappointment, you ladies know that disappointment feeling. It gets unbearable. While everyone around me is announcing pregnancy and having / has children. I get so frustrated, jealous, mad, upset, depressed even, I found myself not even really being happy for my friends and family anymore because well I've been trying so hard and they just accidentally get pregnant. It sucks!!! Every month I would pray and hope and get emotional and this month, is nothing different , beside for the fact I'm 2 DAYS LATE !!! And I'm never late. I find myself wanting to go to bed early just to wake up to see if I started. Checking to see if there is any signs of blood or anything. Like every two hours. Lol obsessive. I wanna know !! four pregnancy test says my period is on it's way , big fat negitives , now they are cheaper brands. But I can't help but by another in case I do get a positive !! And my friends well , I can't even talk to them about it because mind you they all have children , they don't understand these feelings I'm going through I'm completely mind boogied. Is it stress ? Am I going to start tomorrow , could I be pregnant ? I'm hoping I never start because the feeling I'm having it will be unbearable , because I'm almost thinking I could be ... What's worse I can't even go get a blood test tomorrow because it's freaking Sunday, no obgyn are opened and I work Monday , I'm inpatient!! I've been waiting so long and need this !! I need to be pregnant!! Trying not to keep my hopes up but two days late ... I'm really hoping !!! We didn't BD as much as we should have this month. So again I'm just mind boogled... Vent over :))