Will this make it worse for my kid?

I (36) have two kids and my oldest (8F) is battling depression and anxiety, as am I. Unlike me, however, she has thoughts of self harm. She's very close to me, we homeschool and she has no desire to go back to public school. I recently decided to go back to school for psychology and eventual med school to become a child psychiatrist. I plan on starting a non profit to benefit child mental health. My hesitation is, I asked her how she felt about me going to med school and she's not too happy about that because they may mean they'll have to go to school for a few years or I just won't be around as much. This would be great for us financially (though she'll be almost grown by the time I'm done) and it will allow me to work remotely and help young children and their families. I now fear gif I start this journey that it will make things worse for her. I obviously don't want her mental health to be affected by my decisions. Any advice?

lowest mental health point 😚

hi, i’m not really one to post but i’ve learnt that sometimes expressing thoughts to others and just writing it down will help a little bit. i’m only in my early 20’s but i feel like ive reached a new low for my mental health. it feels like life just keeps hitting me with one thing after the other. Some days i feel like im doing better and that im okay but then either later that day or the next day it feels like i just get hit by a truck. every night i lay awake for hours overthinking and spiraling, making me feel crazy unless i medicate myself to sleep. i just wish there was an “off” switch for the brain so i dont have to keep hearing all the thoughts in my head. i have more intrusive thoughts than ever and everything that im feeling is affecting myself, and my relationships around me. my close friends can tell im not doing good but i feel like im alone and dont have anyone to really talk to about it. i do have a therapist and i know they’re trained for just this but i feel so crazy. crazy like im losing my mind and i know the lack of sleep isn’t helping. i started taking ashwaganda and have other vitamins i take as well and i i go to the gym to help but it just feels like i make no progress at all. it feels like im still where i am 4 years ago but worse. i’ve been trying breathing and mind exercises as well as some grounding exercises to try and get a grip of myself but i still just feel like im spiraling. it’s not that im going to self harm but sometimes i wish i was in a comaif there’s anyone who’s felt somewhat similar things, when does it get better and what helped you?

Could really use a pick me up story or something hopeful💔

After a year trying and just bfn after another, I'm really starting to lose hope. What's some tips or tricks that you used to help you get pregnant. I've tried Mucinex and preseed neither help. I've been to the Dr many times and they just keep saying everything looks good. Just frustrated and depressed and could really use a pick me up

Who my moms is..

Basically my mom has been put in jail for something she didn’t even do.. her partner stole money from people using her name and she’s been in for a while now. Today I went and visited her and she gave me this. It broke me. She’s the sweetest soul ever. I don’t know why anyone would try to do this to her.

Child hood trauma.

I’ll keep it short. Today is my father’s birthday, I seen a fb post dedicated to him. From a young woman he raised.. see where I’m going w this? Yeah he didn’t really raise me. I’ve tried to get closer but nothing works. I’m really just heartbroken for my son. My son and him would’ve shared the same birthday and my son is his twin.. Oh well, maybe in another lifetime things would’ve been different.

Need to vent about family.

I let my older sister move in with me as she was pregnant and needed the extra help with a lower rent home. They only paid rent and I paid for everything else. I had one guy over before me and my now baby daddy got together, I moved out early last month and found out Tuesday I’m pregnant as well. She caught wind of the conversation me and my mom had about the money situation at the house and made a nasty face book post about me basically calling me a wh0re. Saying I was hoping from man to man to pay my bills when I got my job not even a month after she moved in and never took money from anyone for anything unless they sent it being nice. I’ve been nothing but nice to her since we got back in contact when she got pregnant. I’ve never done anything to her but I think she secretly resents me for something that happened in 2019. I talked to my mom about it some today and told her I’m not letting my sister come to my baby shower if she’s gonna continue to act like this. My mom told me not to do that because she’s my sister but I don’t need the extra stress on me and baby. I honestly don’t know what to do. Should I still invite her if she continues or not? What would y’all do?

I fell into a hole of stress and anxiety again - again 🫠

I'm currently down again. The only difference from last time is I now know it's likely because of ADHD that I am here again.. I didn't even see it coming this time, because I love my work. Its exciting and challenging. But after months of small hints (Which is obvious looking back) and now a total melt down with stress and anxiety currently making me unable to work I just feel ..... Annoyed. I have tried so many things and so many coping strategies and I still cant make my life work out without eventually collapse into a mess thats unable to work. How do I design a life that fits me?? 🫠I just want to work normally and have fun with my kids. Please 😭

needing advice

hi guys!! i really don’t know how to start these things but i guess im just reaching out in need of advice and just to vent. i want to give a brief history of my situation going on, in march of 2023 i started hanging out with this boy. we hung out for weeks bc we were on break from school we hung out basically everyday until school came back on. to make a VERYY long and confusing story short he ended up having a girlfriend who he broke up with in april of 2023 for me i guess. i’m not even very sure how long they were together for but im told it was at least a few months long. at this point i was in my freshmen year so im very young DUMB AND NAIVE. i ended up dating this boy from my freshmen year (may 2023) to junior year (november 2024) i really feel like this boy was my first love and we did everything together. towards the end of our relationship things got rocky and he just started to call me crazy or would say i overreacted to his actions. any ways we ended up breaking up because i heard rumours he was speaking with his ex (from above), i had reached out to this ex because we were on what i thought was good conditions LEARNED MY LESSON NOW. but she told me “he was a pos who’s never gonna change, she’s would never get with him again” and so forth. she pretended to be my friend during this time and would check up on me. i would vent to her about how i felt about him and all this. which i would not do but she texted me first to begin with. i guess to cut out some parts and for the sake of the people reading this i’ll make it short. not even 2 months after we’ve broken up i’ve found out they’re having sex and are involved with each other again after her telling me all that stuff and being that friendly with me. i’m really just hurt by the fact she lied to me and let me look stupid while making me think she was my friend. while everyone was telling me she’s a fake person i defended her. i guess im just back to a really low spot in my life and i need some advice on how to get over this sorta thing. how am i supposed to just sit here while he and she get to make me look so fucking stupid. i really don’t understand.

Haii💗

Haiii, my name is Rut n I’ve been struggling w mental health for abt 1,5 years now. My parents found out abt my sh like 5 months ago. They took my phone, online friends n I can’t go to mall alone n they got sm more strict. I hate it sm. I can’t show it when I’m sad anymore or else’s they’ll ask me “ru okay?” “do u wanna talk to a therapist?” I hate it. I wanna be free. I don’t want strict parents, u don’t know how much I hate it. Ik they’re js trying to help me but they r js making it worse. I rly don’t wanna talk to them abt it. I feel embarrassed abt my sh. I can’t open up to them anymore. I js wanna run away in summer.Do y’all know smt tht could maybe help w out talking to ur parents🫶? Love y’all bai💗🫶🫶

Taking this off of my chest

As a Muslim girl, my mom and dad have given me pretty much the freedom to do anything. I know what’s forbidden and what’s not in my religion. I’m very much aware of the rules and regulations that apply in my religion. I believe in god and I pretty much help people and try to follow our rules as much as possible. During Ramadan I always fast and pray, but other times I don’t pray but I do listen to the Quran. I know how to differentiate between right and wrong, and I know the right and wrongs, but every. Single. Time. My grandma opens her mouth I just lose my marbles. Going on about how I have zero faith in god, how I’ll go to hell, “oh you won’t see the gates of heaven with those two eyes of yours” and keep in mind that this women. Is. Full on. Religious. Just because I don’t pray she just cancels out every other stuff that I do. I’m 24, my mom has been in another country for work for half a year now and I’ve been working tirelessly to provide for my brother and my grandma. If I have nothing to eat I’d be making sure to put food in front of both of them. My dad lives with his other wife (divorced parents) and I’m all alone. And have shit ton on my plate, stress, depression and so on and she goes on about this bullshit. If not every day, every 2 times a week she’ll throw that in my face. And I don’t know how to deal with it.

Brother is more than likely going to jail

My brothers struggled with a drug addiction for about 15 years on and off.. this time he violated his probation. And might have to finish he term in prison. I’m not handling it well. My anxiety is getting the best of me I think. I keep feeling like I have a bubble in my throat sometimes I’ll even cough and gag. And my stomach feels like it burns. I think I might be unintentionally tightening my stomach muscles out of stress. But it’s also freaking me out thinking something’s wrong. Anyone ever experienced this? Or something similar. I’m so stressed. Also four months out from mold toxicity recovery.

I was on ozempic and got on birth control…

So I am a diabetic… I’m 33 years old. 250lb my heaviest weight was almost 500lbs.In the past I’ve had two miscarriages and have been actively working on my health and starting my business I’m not gonna lie financially I’m struggling.… II started ozempic in October and I’ve lost about 30 pounds now which is great (never mind the over 200 lbs Ive lost in the last 5 years from changing my diet and exercise….. ) but more than anything the ozempic has helped with additional weight loss’s but it has controlled my diabetes. My sugar is 100% in check like it has never been before, I have even on metformin and insulin in the past and I was never this good … I’ve heard stories about getting on Ozempic and getting pregnant… I have been seeing somebody but it’s still very new… but I did get on birth control for the first time in my adult life the beginning of November… It is now the middle to end of January And then I did realize I haven’t had a full-blown period since November, but figured that might be normal since I am adjusting to the birth control. I feel like I spotted in December but maybe one day and nothing in January… I went to Dollar tree and got a pregnancy test. It has the faint little line it potentially might even be an evap line but I am in panic… Being a mom is part of the plan and life that I imagined… but I barely know the person that I just started dating… and all of this right when I am in the progress of working on me, at the point where I even started to imagine a child free life. I’m feeling a little overwhelmed and scared and I know I still have to retest again. I’m going to wait a couple days but just felt like I needed a community too because I don’t feel like I can tell my family at this point.

have Pregnancy dealing with four conditions

I’m so overwhelmed with this last pregnancy. I never went through this with my other four. I was diagnosed with high blood pressure, gestational, diabetes, placenta, previa, and placenta Areta. Praying for me and My Daughter. We have weeks to go with an emergency C-section 35-36 weeks i am currently 29 weeks.

What if I did die?

What if I did die? Would everything that I’ve been waiting to happen, happen? Would it all just work out? Magically teach my a lesson about patience if I had waited *just* one more day? I woke up with some pretty bad thoughts and tried to contact my therapist via phone 3 times so I just got up and went to the place. I’m in the office now and I have no appointment so I feel really rude. But I really needed to talk to someone and lay my head down. I feel like everyone in my life has run out of motivation to give me. And I’ve run out of reasons to keep going. But, IF I did die. If I wasn’t here anymore.. what would happen? Would I have been right to die? Or would it have been a waste.

What is this…?

I’m almost 25…..I have almost everything I could think of..A decent job Great friends A very supporting-loving boyfriendBut why do I feel like a depressed mess from seeing majority of my friends having getting engaged, married, and having babies…?? Especially when I’m the only one in my best friend group of 3 who’s not even close to being engaged….my boyfriend has told me he wants to marry but only if we move in. It sounds reasonable yet why do I feel like it’s not right of him to tell me that???? We’ve been together for a few years already….The only reason why I haven’t moved out is cause of caring for her after my dad’s death and my job…. Is what I’m feeling understandable? What is this crisis??? I don’t want to feel jealous , depressed, or anything but I do…anyone got any ideas? I hate this feeling.

Is this normal or not????

I have had this breast divot in my right breast for a bit.. it’s always concerned me. I have an appointment coming up to check it out but opinions.. plz

ppd, help

My daughter was born 6 days ago and ppd started immediately at the hospital. Daytime I am almost fine but once the sun starts setting I become instantly depressed/ scared… Today’s the first day I admitted to my partner how I’m feeling and broke down crying hysterically. At night we take “shifts” I sleep 8-12:30 (I can not sleep any longer and wake up everytime I hear her cry even tho I sleep in a different room) I watch her 1-5 and during that time I’m terrified because I am so exhausted and afraid of falling asleep on her..She’s been having trouble breathing and doctor said she has really bad congestion so we do not sleep at all at night.. once the sun starts coming up I start to feel better.I’m scared of taking care of her alone gives me anxiety?Also breastfeeding is taking a toll, I tried hand expressing 30min only to get 5ml..I try latching her and then I give her formula 1ozBut if I’m not breast feeding I’m hand expressing if not that I’m trying to pump. I get NOTHING from pumping.. I’m just tired.. Anyone please help with any suggestions.. with my first daughter I ignored everything and it was so bad I was afraid of myself. I didn’t know “ppd” that was 11 years ago.Now I do not want to go through that again.. thank you

I am mentally worn down 🫠

This fall and winter has been an absolute nightmare. Work has been stressful, we've all been sick, I had issues with my teeth causing a lot of pain, my thyroid is enlarged and Im currently waiting on a scan and its all giving me sooooo much anxiety. I can't remember when I last had a full week of feeling normal. I have something important coming up at work, but honestly im struggling to not break down crying when I have to go in. And when I work from home i struggle to meet my hours. Today I feel like one of my boobs are hurting and I cant stop thinking what in im full of cancer? What if I'm dying? What about my kids? What about my husband? I've tried medication but I felt so awful I dont dare take it anymore. It made everything worse. My blood tests are all normal so far. Its all pointing towards stress. Yet I can't stop thinking something else is wrong. I feel so off and weak and its nothing like that stress I've had earlier in life. I just want to feel better. And move on. I feel so hopeless at the moment 😢Thanks for reading 🙏🏻

Confused!

So me(22) and my boyfriend(22) are dating for over 3 years now. We were each others childhood crushes and after 6 years we finally started dating. My family background is not orthodox but they want me to focus on studies and career more than relationships. They dont know about him as my boyfriend but just a friend. Since childhood i have been a girl who doesn’t go out much. Suddenly after dating, i go out with him hangout and chill. My parents dont really appreciate me for hanging out with one boy almost everyday. There are so much clashes aswell. I can’t tell them about us because if i do, and if I perform bad in my studies, my boyfriend would be an easy target for them which I don’t want them to think about him. My boyfriend on the other side won’t understand my situation and would get mad at me and my family every now and then when I couldn’t meet him. He would bad mouth my parents which i don’t appreciate. Him and I other than not meeting, have many clashes as well where he would badmouth my college and would bring up my past failures in academics. He would sometimes pressure me to not pursue any career.I don’t know what to do about this.