Hey y’all

Disclaimer this is long but there is backstory. All help is appreciated. I’m 18 and a virgin and basically this is about whether I’m ready for sex. The guy I’m hooking up with right now is amazing but kind of strange sexually. You’ll see

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So I have had this app for a while now and love just browsing through other people’s posts and answers. Really the reason I have it is to track my period but the community is so great and I have a question I’m hoping y’all can help me with. So I’m 18 and a freshmen in college. I met this boy through a mutual friend and since we were going to college together and had this mutual friend we started texting and whatever. Long story short he became like my best friend at college and now we have a group of like 5 friends (2 boys and 3 girls) that are all my best friends. Anyway. I had a crush on him but Didn’t wanna ruins our friendship. But then a few weeks ago he said he liked me and we started hooking up (making out etc). Anyway I am a virgin and he is not. The most I have done is give a blowjob but I have been fingered. So anyway I told him that I didn’t want to have sex with anyone unless I was dating them but he says he doesn’t want to date anyone yet and that he wants to have sex with me. He said he doesn’t get off on handjobs or bj. I gave him a hj twice and he stopped me after like 40 seconds and then fingered me. He didn’t come. He said he is kind of weird and desensitized with sex from porn. When he lost his virginity last year he didn’t come and he went for an HOUR until the girl was tired. Anyway I’m a little worried because first I want to know if I should have sex with him. I really like and care about him and trust him and he does the same for me. Part of me feels guilty since really all he can do is sex since he doesn’t like bj or hj, but at the same time part of me is like lol that is YOUR fault. Anyway he doesn’t want me to feel pressured or anything and he’s the sweetest guy but I can’t help feel guilty. And if we have sex and he doesn’t come I will feel guilty then too even if it is not my fault. Anyway thanks for reading this rant. Any advice is appreciated. I guess I just want to hear your thoughts on how to know if I am ready for sex. I have anxiety so like I’m always nervous about things and my whole life has been just about getting passed fears by just facing them. Is sex the same way? Or will I be totally not nervous? Also does anyone have experience w guys who don’t like hand jobs or blow jobs? I have never heard of such a thing lol.

Thanks guys xx

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