I’m so sorry you’ve had such an emotional journey and I’m sure your exhausted! It has to be hard that you never got closure but you can’t blame yourself as hard as it is to say out loud you were not the reason your ex passed away you cannot carry the weight of it. the way he chose to live led him down that path and he looked for fulfillment in all the wrong places. I’m so sorry he allowed his life to come to an end so soon and in a horrible way I know that there will be healing that needs to take place but allow yourself to let go of the burden of feeling like it’s you who caused him to go to that dark place everyone deals with their own stuff and at the end of the day what we do with our lives is a personal decision

As hard as it may be you have to move forward not because it’s the easy thing to do but because it’s what your baby needs you to do and your husband

You chose your husband, continue to choose him and your baby

Honestly the only way I find joy and healing is through a closeness and relationship with Jesus

It’s not going to church that will fulfill you or being a good person it’s Jesus healing

It doesn’t matter what you’ve done I promise you

Jesus loves you enough to cover anything that any of us have done

Here’s a couple verses from the Bible that are true and these promises are offered to everyone because He loves us

John 3:16 “for God so love the world that He gave His only son that whoever believes in Him will not perish but have everlasting life.”

“Because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved.”

ROMANS 10:9-10

believe that Jesus is God and has offered you salvation that you can accept

He doesn’t want you to work for your salvation by doing religious things He wants a relationship with you because He made you and loves you unconditionally!

“The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”

2 Peter 3:9

He wants you to live in the joy, rest, and the peace of His grace

“He has saved us and called us to a holy life—not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time.”

2 Timothy 1:9

“He has delivered us from the power of darkness and transferred us into the kingdom of the Son of His love “

Colossians 1:13

With Jesus the darkness will not consume you!

He can heal your trauma better than any therapist because He created you and is the unconditional love and wisdom that we all need

When I first accepted Jesus into my heart and life I read the book of John it’s a great place to start I’ll be here if you have any questions

But either way I’ll pray for your heart with all that it’s going through I hope that you choose healing in Jesus because I know it will be soon and He would heal you fully <3

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