Am I seeing things or can you see eyes?

I can see eyes I’m unsure if I’m seeing this by a or if people can see what I can see?

Realizing I need help

For my mental health. I’m so depressed. Like severely depressed I think. I’m having suicidal thoughts every single day and I keep thinking I just want to give up and die. I have kids and I’m feeling so selfish because I still want to die. But I know I can’t leave them behind. I feel like a bad mom for even having these thoughts. I am trying to get into see a therapist. Just waiting on a call. I’m hoping I can find the right medicine pretty quickly but from what I’m told it takes a while. I’ve always been so against taking meds but I realize now that I absolutely need it. I don’t know how much more of this I can take without meds. I’m hoping I get in pretty soon. I’m going through ALOT right now so please just send positive vibes/prayers my way…

Heyy a little help?

So I am struggling with getting out of my depression as a teenager what do you think I should do? I have tried to do counseling, therapy, mental illness hospitals, nothing is working.

Feeling crap

Today I proper felt like a bad mum. All night last night my son kept waking up crying, today he’s been fussy and crying none stop and carrying to pet him to bed he’s been trying for over an hour and still going. I feel hopeless and defeated. I can’t help but feel I’m a bad mum and I’m letting him down. Moral of the story there are good days and bad days but we get through it.

ADHD Husband Crossing Boundries

Is it true that people with ADHD can forget things seconds after someone says them?TW: SA mentionMy husband and I were making out. I was wearing a dress. He went to touch my butt and moved up my dress. We have cameras in the house because we’ve had people try to break in and we live in an apartment complex so we want to be able to see if any maintenance people come in. Anyway, my dress came up and I said “not around the cameras” and did a tisk sound to be funny. I don’t totally trust that cameras won’t be hacked by third parties so I’m never in revealing positions around them. A minute later, he does it again!I have trauma from being SA’d and R*ped multiple times so I got triggered. He’s always been good with my No’s. I’ll even just go “um” during sex and he’ll immediately pull out and stop. There’s only been one time that he didn’t hear me the first time I said “ow”, but immediately stopped when he did. He’s never done anything un-consensual . I just want to make that clear.We’ve been going through a very tough time, even considering divorce. But that’s not all 🥲 Last night, we went to Target and he put a can of condensed milk in MY bag without telling me and we left the store (he was intending to do what that sounds like). He gave me a smug look when we left the store and I was like what? I checked my bag and there it was. He could have gotten me in serious trouble!! Like why my bag too?? If you’re gonna make a dumbass mistake, at least do it yourself. I gave it to him in the car and told him to go out it back, which he did. I was really upset because we’ve been talking about how he doesn’t respect me or even know what that word means and he literally just disrespected me again!! His reasoning was that he’s having trouble with impulse control.I just want some opinions on these things, please. We’ve both had really hard things happen recently, life has kind of beat us down.I just don’t know if I want to try to be with a man who constantly disrespects me. I made another post, explaining that during arguments he gets so defensive that he refuses to listen to my side. He also dismisses my feelings, he’ll apologize later but I’m sick of this happening.He has BPD btw.I think that’s all y’all need to know. Please help me 😭😭

Things I want 💕

Just a few things that I find useful or will help me!

Mental health help?

I grew up in a really crappy household. My father had a lot to do with that. I feel as if I have some trauma and will never shake that. I have noticed now that I am older it’s much worse. I have been through a lot personally with loss, grief, and all around just not good. These past two weeks I feel done mentally. From as long as I can remember I have always felt like this. I have bad mood swings, short fuse, and I feel as if when it’s good it’s great but when it’s not, it’s absolutely terrible. I want to reach out to a doctor and maybe explain all this. I am tired of feeling like this so much so it effects my marriage. I don’t think it’s depression at all! I just don’t know what it is. I just know I need help. I don’t know what else to do.

BPD advice

For the past year I’ve noticed my mental health declining and I believed I was depressed for about 9 months. But recently I learned of BPD and it sounds more like what I’ve been going through. My feelings split sometimes within a minute. Eg. One minute I love my boyfriend and the next minute I dislike him. Even tho deep down I love him very much. Same with my friends, I’m always having split change of thought about them. And the depression I believe I was in, was part of a split. I have been reading and watching videos about BPD and the different types, and think I could possibly be interalised. Is anyone diagnosed with BPD and or is anyone else in a similar situation. Thanks in advance.

I’m losing my mind

It’s a long story, but it feels like I’m losing my mind. I’ll be 100% honest here since I’ll be anonymous anyways. So Friday I went out with my boyfriend and stayed the night. For some reason, I had a really bad feeling about coming home. It felt like some news was waiting for me that I wouldn’t like at all. Not only that, but Mother’s Day was this Sunday. I don’t have the best relationship with my mom. She’s a severe alcoholic (if that’s how you can say it), and last year I went to see her after 12 years for the first time. The trip opened a lot of wounds I thought were healed. I also saw my older sister; which opened even more of those wounds. My older sister molested me from 5-8, and when I told my mom about it, she got upset with me. I dont know if she remembers me telling her because she never brought it up again. My sister apologized when I was 15. I thought I forgave her, I wanted to forgive her; but I don’t. I’m 23 now and I realize I don’t, and I dont know how to deal with the anger I have towards her. My older sister has been taking a lot of her anger out on our younger sister now. I’m afraid telling my older sister how I feel will only result in her taking things out on our younger sister. Not only am I upset about this, but I was told on Saturday that a family member of mine has been talking about me behind my back. This isn’t the first time this has happened. I’m trying to keep the peace because this member is 15. Go ahead and call me childish, but it’s fucked up when someone you’ve always done your best to do right by places judgement on you without even fully knowing what you’ve gone through/are going through-especially when you’ve never done that to them. As much as I’d love to talk to her about it, I can’t. I found out what she’s been saying about me from her brother, and the last time I confronted her about what she had to say, HE got into trouble. I know the same thing is gonna happen, and it bothers me that it’s like that. My anxiety has been through the roof, and it still feels like only more bad shit is to come. My period is late. I had thoughts of self harm(I reached out for help and got it). I almost lashed out on a kid at my job while he was crying because he fell. I’m burned out. I’m fucking angry. All I wanna do is cry and scream at everything I look at.

Losing myself

Hey ladies, so 2 years ago I lost my dad due to an Illness. Now my 14 year old dog is dying and I’m even more of a mess. He’s been here for most of my life that I can remember and I feel like without him here my life will never be the same. I live at home and nobody in my house really talks about it, they all argue at each other while on the inside I am trying my best to keep myself alive. I just can’t imagine my life without him in it and I know this is apart of life that is going to happen eventually but I don’t want it to. I can’t function properly and I don’t have many friends to talk to about it as we are close but not that close to each-other. I don’t know what kind of repose i am looking for but I just wanted to share and maybe someone will know what im going through.

SHOULD I BE CONCERNED??

I was talking to my younger sister, (2 years younger) . She said she was super attracted, like that was her ideal type and it was so hot… and it was a drawing of a feminine skinny boy with long dark wavy hair, and light abs with a light hourglass figure. It looked like a girl and that’s how people describe me including my sister.. my sister jokes about me being hot, do you think my sister is attracted to me? My sister is 16

I'm not OK *TW*

I'm really struggling at the moment and I can't control my emotions. I really need help 😢

ADHD diagnosis

I have a lot of traits/symptoms of ADHD but I’m not diagnosed with it. I don’t think a diagnosis would have the same impact for me as it does other people where they feel like all the puzzle pieces finally fit and have this huge relief. If I do have ADHD I don’t think it’s at a point where medication would be necessary, but I was wondering what other benefits there are to getting diagnosed other than that clarity or access to medication

Any tips on how can I face difficult situations wherein I will not be super stressed thinking about it.

Hi, i am actually an overthinker and most of the time if ever i face a certain problem or situation, i would overthink about it almost every minute of the day. Just asking for some advice/tips in handling these certain situations without geeting stress so much and overthinking about it so much. Thanks

It feels like my lonely ness is eating me up from the inside

I miss my toxic ex and I’m desperately seeking comfort

Certain tv shows affect my mood

I noticed that when I watch drama tv shows I get more angry and fight more with my spouse without realizing it. Does anyone else do the same thing? I also wake up with a panicky feeling when I watch shows with a lot of shooting/graphic death scenes.

If something is flushed down the toilet

I have a septic and feel as if something was flushed down how do I retrieve the item? I have fear of loss due to OCD please don’t make fun of me!

PCOS and depression

has anyone gone through being diagnosed with PCOS and go through a time of severe depression? i’m 22 and have a history of depression/anxiety/sh/ed/suicidal thoughts. i haven’t felt this way for 8-9 years.. i used to be on antidepressants & anti anxiety meds but i haven’t been on any for years.i was diagnosed with pcos after a year of fighting with my OB to do the ultrasound/run the bloodwork. he finally did after i gained 115 lbs in a year- even though i eat healthily and work out 4-5 days a week and my left ovary is completely taken over by cysts, (he did an ultrasound the year before due to different concerns and there were NO cysts)lately i’m feeling like i’m 13 again and i’m just numb. i cry all day every day and i’m slipping back into where i used to be and it is so upsetting and disappointing.i’m just wondering if anyone has been through something similar? i’m scared to tell my parents (who have been taught how to handle my situation, they know how to calm me), but my husband doesn’t know what to do/say/react (i don’t blame him. i wouldn’t either)i try not to be bitter- i try so hard. but i fall deeper and deeper into horrible thoughts and anxiety every time i see another pregnancy announcement, and does NOT help someone im very close to got pregnant her first round of trying. im extremely happy for her, but im so extremely sad for me and i don’t know how to navigate the feelings of having no purpose, being lost, always wondering “why not me?”. she sends me bump progress pictures almost daily- ultrasound pictures. she knows my struggle, my diagnosis. she knows it all. should i speak with my doctor about these thoughts and see if i can be prescribed antidepressants again? i have no idea what to do. i’m ashamed in every aspect.