I've been ttc for 19 months now I feel as if everyone around me is getting pregnant

and when I work up enough courage to ask them how or what did they do differently its always either " O i stopped trying" or "o we weren't trying it just happened" or " if you stop stressing about it, it will happen just wait and see

Ha ha ha yeah okay well im here to tell you I've done that I've stopped trying as much as i possibly could and stop worrying as much as i humanly could and every month I say fuck yeah

this is my month and I have every symptom known to man that says "YES WE FUCKING DID IT"

just to have af show her fucking face.

but this month isn't any different af is due in 2 days and as usual my body has either tricked itself that its pregnant again

or I've finally fuck done it

1. my boobs are usually sore a week before af and that never happened this month.

2. i never get pimples before or after af and i have 1 huge one in the middle of my face that just sprouted up last night

3. extremely moody though maybe pms so could go either which way

4. super horny all the time ( since we have been ttc my main focus was just getting pregnant then after so long we tried just enjoying each other again and bringing the fun back and even since we have been its not an everyday all day thing) but this month is different out of nowhere its a everyday all day thing.

5. i was sick during my fertile week ( flu) and just getting over now but im still sick so the nausea and fatigue etc. can go either way also.

but i guess i will know soon enough since af is due in 2 days wish me luck

sorry for the long rant but to everyone out there rather you have been ttc for 2 minutes or 10 years baby dust to you all

because this shit is hard and stressful and confusing and we need all the support, luck, blessings, prayers and baby dust we can get this is for

you

TTC together!