Need some advices pls.

Another failed IVF cycle. 4th try and my one egg didn't even fertilized this time. Never had a fertilization issue before. I have my sum up below. I am 43, husband 45.

I produce 1 egg by myself and can ovuluate.

Husband's sperm is good. Dr say just aging.

But he wants us try since it was our first cycle with him. He thinks I can get pregnant.

I feel so upset, frustrated, cold, desperate. My husband loves kids and always goes and sees his nephew, niece, buying tons of presents to them or to his friends kids. I hate that! I feel like I am alone in this journey. I told him and he thinks he is supportive but I am so unhappy when he is spending time with other kids. I am so upset and do not want to see any kids even my nieces now. I do not want to go any kids's graduation, recitale whatso ever. I feel so desperate and blame myself thinking this way. But I want my own kid.

Just want to ask if I should try one my cycle. When is the time to stop. I am financially drenched since paying everything out of pocket.

But don't want to regret years later. This fertility journey effects my marriage in a terrible way. I do everything. No coffee, no nail polish for years, no chemicals, no plastics, clean eating.

I just need to hear something from someone who is in this IVF journey. Noone understands how hard it is.

Thank you❤️

First IVF cycle (July 2022)

One egg retrieved - Arrested at day 5 morning.

Second IVF cycle (September 2022)

Two eggs retrieved - Both made day 5 and transferred on day 5

Got pregnant. Miscarried at 7 weeks

Third IVF cycle (February 2023)

One egg retrieved - Made day 5

Day 5 Fresh transferred no pregnancy

* Changed clinic

Fourth IVF cycyle (June 2024)

Did PRP. Natural IVF cycle.

One egg retrieved. Egg didn't even fertilized.

Cycyle cancelled today.

40 and TTC #no 1