Hi everyone, I just joined this group. A little background about me: I was diagnosed with PCOS. After TTC for a while, I finally got pregnant in May 2019 with the help of Clomid but it turned out to be an ectopic pregnancy. I was treated with methotrexate (worst 6 weeks) and ended up keeping my damaged tube. My RE told me that I had a 10-35% chance of a second ectopic if I tried to conceive naturally, so my husband and I choose to move forward with

IVF

as we were told the risk of an ectopic falls to 1-2%. I had my egg retrieval in November and my FET on January 21st. I found out this week that I’m either having a miscarriage or another ectopic pregnancy due to dropping betas. I don’t know which one yet since I haven’t had an ultrasound.

My question is, how have you all coped with loss and moved through the grieving process knowing how much you put your body through? When I grieved my loss last summer, it was extremely difficult, but I find this time around feeling so different. I’m devastated and frustrated... I spent the last 4 months prepping my body for the

IVF

process, spending a ton of money on procedures/daily injections/other medications/etc. You spend so much time going to appointments, putting your body through complete hell dealing with all of the side effects that come with each medication (migraines EVERY week), and everything else that comes with fertility treatments. It’s not an easy process to go through physically and emotionally, especially when you don’t have any friends or family that understand what it’s like to battle infertility.

How have you managed to cope with an

IVF

loss? How did you move forward? After everything I’ve put my body through, I can’t help but feel like I’m continuing to do all of this for nothing, and I don’t want to think that way.

IVF Loss