So my step grandma has been fighting breast cancer for many years now and it's now time that things are finally coming to an end. She lives in Louisiana and I'm all the way in Arizona not being able to have any contact because she's currently not in an able state of mind to communicate. I haven't seen my grandma in about 2 years due to school/ money problems. But I love her all the much and it's not getting hard to bare that she's going to be gone very very soon. I've struggled with sever depression and anxiety dissorders and many more for many years and right as I now think I'm happy again this is happening. I've experienced a lot of deaths in my life some happening in a closer relationship to the person than this but it never hit me this hard. Am I getting so emotional because I'm close to my period date or is this just a natural grieving process? None of my "friends" here have helped in any way which I don't necessarily ask for but it would be nice not to hear about boy trouble and how it sucked so bad to work for 3 hours today when I myself am stuck here in a different state working as if nothing's going on and putting on a happy face. I guess I just need some advice on what to do if there is anything to do. Thank you for reading if you have and sorry for the bother