since about 3 weeks ago my depression has come back due to my partner drinking all the time. He goes to the pub straight from work everyday and doesn't come home until late so i don't bother getting food out and cooking anymore. i can't remember the last time i ate dinner like a proper meal :( i feel so bad for my baby by doing this so im hardly eating as i don't eat much during the day either. I just feel so alone and lost, don't know what to feel anymore. Ill sometimes cry for hours at night time to the point i want to harm myself again and thats how i know its gotten bad. Just want things to go back to how they where