Can I Get Some Comments And Advice!!!!

Okay I Use To Be So Happy To Be With MyBoyfriend Like I Use To Be Shy Around Him Like We Some Kids On Middle School When We BEEN Graduated But To Fast Forward Now I Get Mad At Him Digusted Eveything Now Idk Where This Come From But I'm Guessing It Comes Grom Me Seeing Him Doing Sneaky Stuff Like Hiding His Phone Screen From Me When My Eyes Don't Even Be On His Phone But I Catch Him Hiding It From The Side Of My Eye Then He'll Look At Me With This I Hope She Ain't See It Stare I Just SMH And Continue Doing What I Was Doing Also Think It Comes From Him Looking At Other Girls That Looks Better And Dress Better Than Me Don't Get Me Wrong I Put No Women Above Me And Don't Down Talk Myself But The Truth Is The Truth I Never Say Nothing Because I Don't Know How To Handle It Or Take It Because I Have A Crazy Mind That Will Send Me Behind Bars Or Just Hurt Myself ..What Should I Do???