Ughhhh :( ihurting

I'm getting so depressed... And it's all my bfs fault because of his anger issues & how he re acts & treats me so rude all the time. He thinks he's always right. He thinks I'm the bad guy. He thinks I always blame everything on him. I feel like I'm starting to hate him . He won't support me when I'm asking for his support. I'm feeling depressed for the longest time now & he dsnt care, he keeps acting up to his anger issues towards me over anything and it's making it so so much difficult. I feel like I'm losing my worth. I don't see the point of keep on living... :( idk what I'm worth anymore :( I don't feel appreciated I'm just so hurt from this relationship already... I wanna leave... But idk how to... I want him in my life still.. I'm even ttc with him... But I realized he's not the right one... :( and I guess I have to leave... Sorry for the rant :( idk where else to go to where I can get the support I need :(