Need to vent

So I tested earlier today, and got a BFN. Glow says af isn't due till tomorrow, so I really didn't expect a positive, but I was still hoping for one. I was bummed about it, and I thought I was ok. In the last hour and a half, it just started hitting me hard for some reason. I've cried three times. I'm trying to pull myself together. I feel silly and ridiculous for crying so much. I don't have anyone I can talk to about this. I really try not to be negative, but it's so hard to keep hoping and get disappointed each month...😢